mums moving out
leaving home
leaving dad
leaving us
for him.

I never liked him
they're both married still
at least for now

she doesn't even have a fridge
and she only has two chairs
and a bed.
she has everything at home

I have myself bruises after she left
and left the words
ringing in my ears.
I cannot unhear them
and I cannot unfeel this.

she told me, and I cannot unfeel this
I want to hate her
both of them
they're destroying two families
mine and theirs

it's not fair
not fair on anyone.

whoops, looks like I don't like you anymore.
this could be awkward

just end already.

My first days back and I was rolling round the town Saying, stay away from edges and from ropes if you can 'Cause I am the last one... And the curse stops here The curse stops here

i've just felt really lost, and kind of betrayed and not
really having any real sense of purpose or identity as all
the things i love seem to be 'in' and people are hanging my loves
up in stores and shoving pricetags on them and people are taking
them and trying them all one and there are fingerprints where
there shouldn't be all over them and i'm feeling like the things that
people once ridiculed me for are now cool and they're flaunting all
the things that used to make me cry.

And I am something horrible.

Sometimes i wish i could give my mind, my thoughts to someone else and see if they declare me insane. Im thinking not everyone wants to burn their skin or bruise themselves or come close to death or has to write all their thoughts out like if they stay in their they'll implode or send me even madder than i already am.